My life sucks.

Ever since you all went , i am always alone in school or anywhere . If there's a placei can go , i would really stay at sg . I wanted to go to all your school and find your . Hais . Even if none of you are looking at these , i cant help . I wanna stop studying , but , i cant . what the hell i should do ?Should i fucking go hell ? Hais . I wanna just die , no one agrees . Sua . i just have to live quietly with fear and sads .