Suffering in silence .

What if this operation Fail ,

I could have just die ...

After exam , i would maybe have a operation . Why cant i just die . Then suffering from all these emotional acts .
I don want to breath .
I wanna just die .
I don want to cry .
Love hurts ,
Gans don help .
They do not know anything .
They don care for me now .
Only Jiaxing ,
What can i do ?
Suffer myself .
Maybe she is the same age ,
I am two years younger ,
don have the attention?
Hais ,
Maybe...
These maybe an 2nd operation le .
Die le ,
Better .
Don need ,
so sad for people .
Hais ...
All i can do is ,
Suffer in silence .