Today went out larhs . Not really a lot of place . Went Popeyes ate lunch . Sms Jessle a lot of time today . helped her too ? Then quarreled with Ruxi . Lols . Etc etc thing lahr s. Not nice saying . I have damn much homework to do sia . Will be posting my photos took today at Marina Barrage and other place . Byes .

Hello all . Today was the last day of school . wasnt quite fun . very bored . Hais . How i wish Mrs Ng is here...sian . Bo lan post this blog sia . ass . Lols . Talking about myself so long never post . coming band for a few days in holiday . aiya , sians .who cares . got prefect training also , cannot wear ankle socks . zzz . I want sia .This blog is sibei dead yi sia one lorhs . This few days very good with Jessle , Kept smsing her . Lols . i was like , am i irritating ?lols . Now at Jasmine house using com . Gonna sleep only at 1.30 . . Overnight at her house then tmrw go Marina Barage .zzz . I am so tired sia . Just now go Jurong Point shop until 10 lehs . Now was soso bored . Someone trying to go my blog and signing in now , he want hack . Lols . I know who worhs .Yuanling going to Hangzhou 2 more days , i so lonely . My best friend going then i one person aloe . No one pei me go out play . SO BAD! Fighted with ruxi , she always say i wrong , cant accept this type of people and attitude . But since its so small , and no apologisation is given for me , I'll think if i can acdept it , i don wanna dance anymore .(MAYBE)

Hello peeps ! I am back ! lol :x Kays .

Wtf lorhs , Yesterday and today was NAPFA . I hate it sia. So tiring . Toay 5 station. BBrought small bags for these two days . Ms Pon take over le . Tomorrow lesson time . Too Bad . Nowadays i am practising Gee dance . Not fun de . walao.Holiday got so many days need go back school .Got my report book back le . Not very good larhs . 3 As and all Bs . SO bad right . Ppl got A* all these , i only got 3 A . SO bad . Kays , not posting that much le . Byes .

Lols , ps worhs .Yesterday only put pics . Was not in the mood yesterday . Kays , Yesterday was almost fun larhs .

Me kanna pangseh by 2 ppl sia , Xiaowen and Khairun . Lols. Then in the end meet Ruxi . We went to a lot of place and some very funny sia . Was hyper yesterday.The funniest and interesting one is when we wear the 3D glasses and took sibei lots of pics . Lols .

Almost spent half an hour inside . Then i went Curiosity bought lip gloss . Lols . Expensive sia .Nothing much le . Went home at 6 like that . Then sms Ruxi , Yantian and Zarni lorhs . Then Ruxi ask me dance Gee with she and Yuanling . Ps lehs . Still thinking if i want or not .Must shake butt so many times .

Now chatting with laopo . Gonna off com le . Later meeting Ruxi to practise dance . Byes .

These few days are really dark for me . I was thinking , why so many things had happened . But being a ordinary girl really makes me think that i am just gonna fall and cant stand up . But , i still have peeps who really care for me . Concern about me .Mrs left and friends became to leave me one by one . Sometimes , i really thinks that i am a big failure .Making my life so difficult for me , thinking negative always . And i don take advises , how idiot i am .Being myself is the most important . Sometimes , life really can be unfair .

Yantian ,
My HeartloverJieh ,
My best listener and comforter.

Thanks alrights . You are the one who is always here for me when i needed someone . You told me all the things , i would really remember .I would stand up and moveon . i would not think about the past anymore . But , i cant control it . Heaven is controlling my life . Not me .I knew that i am not alone . I still have you . You would really help me to stand up , i would really try to stand up by myself .Being your HeartloveMeih is really my joy . But , goodthings come to an end . One day , all of you will forget about me .Thats life alrights .


Zarni ,
My Korh ,
Listener .

You dumbo . (; Donno how comfort me de . Make me so sad . But still thanks . Life is really very unfair . we cant stop all this , we cant control . But life is mine .i want to control . Being myself cant help sometimes . But sometimes , i really wanna just die . All of you will forget about me one day . And i cant stop all these . Finding myself alone in some dark days . Makes me feel alone and unsecure . I always cry , Because of Mrs Ng and Amanda. But , what i did not cry ? I would really think that i don care anything about them , i cant do it . :)

Jiaxing ,
My best Wifey ,
Did nothing gurl .

Gurl , Although you did nothing , but i wanna tell you something . No matter what you do , i will be with you . Stop caring for me cans .You make me cry . Although you think i am mean by teling you all these , but , I cant care more . I really wanna have more peace . No more crying . Feeling sad now , every day , minute , second . I really love you . I cant bear to see you so sad . Heartbroken . Sorry alrights . You got to stand up and move on . No more stops . Listen to me one last time cans . You are the gurl i care the most . DO not make me worry cans . Thanks . iloveyou forever . x33


Thanks alrights , Zarni and Yantian . Amanda , listen can . Thanks . :|

Hais

Not gonna post much . Just Pics . Today went Science Centre . Done .



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Today Mrs Ng is here . But not teaching us . I cried when i saw her . F . peeps go tell teacher i cry . Cause me in trouble . sibei jialat . Then went class was the what Miss Pon who took over . fine fine . She say i quiet . Somemore her expectations is one A4 size paper like that more . Mrs Ng is really very good . Better .

I should not cry actually . Controlled le . :) But peeps think i still haven . Lols . Stupid busybody Zwe go tell Mr low . Then the whole class know liao . So the wtf lorhs . Then i shouted , I DID NOT . I also go hit the Zwe . nbcb la him .

After school , went back home . Did not slack . Too tired and depressed . How i wish to scream out loud . Only Him can help me . He agreed to let me have it out . Means i can punch or even scream at him . But i not so bad . I shouted at him .Sorry horhs . :x

When at home , i was eating Maggie . Never realise that my hang was burnt . wtf la . when came out , touched the water , so pain . one whole pink patch . Not very pain also . Lols . I so fake right .Then had a nap , waited for Jayden to come home so i could play with him .

Then he went home le , i was so lonely lorhs . Stop crapping le . Gonna go FB le . Tmrw going to Science Centre with Xiaowen and Khairun . :) Buhbyes .(DO CLICK ON MY NUFFNANG ADS!)


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You are gonna leave me alone . You rather choose other people to care for you . But i cared for you , you don even care . Its like you had forgotten me .i don know what to do . I already lost my favourite teacher who is not going to teach me ever again . I don want to be more sad . I really hope that you would understand why i am like that . No one else understand my feelings . Its complicated . Its weird . Hais . I really want to find the hyper Chenqmun back ! Hais .

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Today Mrs Ng officially leave our class and is not our co-form teacher anymore , maternity leave .I really don want Ms Violet Pon to replace Mrs Ng . And she cannot be replace forever in my heart .Hais . Mrs Ng is really a good teacher . I cried for her . She almost cried today . Her face all red . I really cannot bear to see her to leave . I would really be sad these few days . Its not that she's ___ . But she is the teacher who taught me and i learned many things and did well for SA1 . Mrs Ng even give us a card , with her Msg and all cards have different one . I am sure it is done with effort and of course , sincere .Although Mrs Ng would only be back at around October ,but i will still save a Teachers Day present for her and its a BIG one . Biggest . I really really hope that Mrs Ng would be my teacher the next term or even next year .

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Mrs Ng ,
You are really a good teacher . I really love your teaching styles and the notes you gave us and its really really very useful for all our upcoming exams . Although you will not be around , I will always do well for my examinations and remember all the things you told us . The stories , the naggings , the scoldings , and of course the jokes . Thank you soso much . You would always stay in my heart . Thank you very very much . ♥

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Sians . Today nothing to do . Just went school then went back home again lorhs .

Morning from homw wake up so late then go school . :x Almost late .

Then i went for Flag raising , go there slack only . Lame one . Then when time reach , we rase everything up .
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Then i go hall wait for teacher .Mrs Ng call 5 of us go take her Mama shop things , was like WOW , so many things lehs .Cannot believe ,

When we reach class , we help her setup her Mama shop .then select numbers , lol sia . Then when my turn go there shop , i bought a Hello Kitty radio which cost 40 Mrs Ng dollars , 2 notebooks for 5 Mrs Ng dollar and 3 pens which cost 6 Mrs Ng dollar and a Perfume .The rest i gave Shuning .

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After recess , we went back to class . I took free lift sehs .Lols . Then Mrs Ng told us a lot of things and she is going to say bye to us tmrw . I almost cry lehs . Tmrw she will be going . I want her notes and naggings ...

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I really love Mrs Ng teaching style . She is the best teacher i had ever have .I really need to thank her for teaching me and i got good results . She cares for us . I would really really miss her nagging and jokes and even stories .
Mrs Ng ,
I would never forget the Eagle story you told us . Its the nicest and valuable story i had know and its a lesson . Thank you very very much . i would always miss you . And i will not forget about you . Hope you would be my teacher next year ,Thank you , :)

Nomore.

loveyou kays . I reall don want see you sed horhs . Like last time , The case .Happy kays . No matter what still got me . Up to now , we are still BEST Wifeys . But , i knoiw there would be one day when you don really love me as now . and as close as me . Maybe the next few days / months or maybe minute . I really have a feeling that you would be friends with others and don care about me and treat me invisible . Hais .

Sometimes , i really think that , you reply ppl more because we not close to each other and nothing to talk and not even loves . And people find my attitude bad , irritating . Sua . I don care them . Boliao only .They motherfucking no brain .But you , i hope you don . I really have no strength to fight all these sadness le . Maybe you find me writing all this is very sudden . But i don want to wait until we not that close then i say . That would be useless .

You don trust me le .i really feel like dying . I wanna the old you who love me .I don want to be left out . No more these days can . You gonna leave me , next year . With that gurl , what if she also want go same school as you ? What am i gonna do ? MY WIFEY GONNA BE SNATCHED !

I cannot care more le . if the case is like that . Blame me if you want ., I have no rights to say others . Maybe i should 死得早一点，这样我就可以快点投胎做人，改变我的性格。

ZZZ,

Hellooooo . Feeling sad sia . Feeling that Mrs Ng would leave veryvery soon. her Stomach very big le . Next week our new teacher coming . I don want . Next week also got Napfa . Idiot .I don want ! Very tired one lehs . Sians . Hope i can get silver barhs . Don want retest le .


Dazhong ,
You don act like very pro cans .Think the whole 244 is yours ? Your ass larhs .You all late comers only .We very long here de . This is our turf larhs . Bo ji .You all think you all very smart ?Sorry , No.zzz. Bunch of idiots .

The days.

My cute wifey .
Today i am gonna die le larhs .Nothing to do sia . Stay at home do nothing . Watch tv , sms like that only ? Walan . Ruxi birthday today . But cannot go her party .zzz . (Got reason)
Then maybe asking Yuanling go out Slack with me .but i bankrupt .
Tomorrow gonna meet Amanda they all for FLOUR Fight ,haha .
Now chatting with Wifey and Twinneh .
Complaining things to both of them . LOL rights .Is the person ask for it one .
I really lovelove my Wifey and Twinneh , also Zarni korh !(My listener+Joker) !

Ending this idiotic story le .

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Taqs replies .

CHIAJIAXING.: WIFEYYYYYYYY x3
R:WIFFFEEYYYYYY x33 LOLS .

CYNTHIA: Tagged x3
R:Thanks ! x33

Ru Xi: OreaSweetHeart, taggies for you. ^^
R:Thanks . ^^

CHIAJIAXING.: Jiaxing love Chengmun 1314/ x3
R: Same for you alrights . 1314 . iloveyou .

ILOVEYOU!

Hello .Today got my papers back .Eng and Mother tongue still do know my total sia . sians .

Maths : 77/100
Science:77.5/100
Eng:63/95 ( Haven add LC,Oral , Compo)
Chi:70/90 ( n0t included LC , Oral and COmpo)
Higher Chi : 37/60(Not include Compo)


Overall not that bad . Ilovemy scores . At least my maths won Shuning . Shiok .

To Amanda ,

You really improved le .I knew you can do it de .iloveyou de horhs .study hard kays . See ! You really can can do it . Good job . Its ur hard work which paid off . Jiayouu s!
iloveyous .

LOL

Hello :)
Ps worhs . Yesterday bo post . No chance use com larhs . Sad lorhs .
Yesterday was English . Quite okays barhs .

Today , went up to hall assemble .Then when about to go up , sitting right there , saw Amanda , Renise and Adeline . Lols . The Amanda keep on call me .

Amanda : CHENGMUN !

Chengmun : (SMILE)..

Amanda : CHENGMUN ! (Wave and say Hello)

Chengmun : Turn behind , Smile and turn infront .

Amanda : CHENGMUN !

Chengmun : Hello !!! (Wave )
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Lols right . This is the funny things between we , Wifeys .Lols .
Tmrw Maths le .Sure fail one , Bad at it alrights . Somemore never study . Dc la.Byes le .

Happy Mother Day

Hello :)
Today , Haiyo . Must study le larhs . I cannot fail my SCIENCE and MATHS . Very important lehs .Tmrw is English . I still can make it larhs . But Maths cannot la . Wtf lorhs . Later maybe going down to slack with Sherlyn and Ruxi Milo .Bored ...

Yesterday gave mummy the gift , she damn happy . Then she don keep one lorhs :x . Playing NightClub City . Fun lehs .ILOVEAMANDACHIAJIAXING for life alrights . :) .

Not crapping lw . Nothing to say . Alrights . Buhbyes . Pictures :)

Love

Today went to Imm buy present for Mum . Spent $8 plus .But nice . haha .Bought 2 rose , One real , one fake . Then i saw Ruxi Milo at there . Cannot say see . Is planned .Haha . I also bought a pink paper and 2 colour pens to decorate my card . The card i decorated like hell sia . To me , is nice . But people like _____ will say i step .Now lorhs . Lols . Jking .

Today quite happy larhs ,Sastified with today shopping . Ruxi Milo walk like almost the whole IMM with me sia . walk here walk there . Pei me until she tired lo . Haha . Then we went Mini Toons want buy gift one , but Sold out . wtf . I want that gift .

Then we went eat thing at the kopitiam , then decided to buy XXL chicken . XXL Chicken FTW ! Haha . Bought le then went upstairs . Then she decided to go home . Then fine lorhs . GO . Sastified le so don want hold her any longer.Lols .

On the way i keep on see my deareset Amanda Wifey and Zarni Korh .Lols . Met them 3 times lehs . So funny sia . And Amanda Wifey pinch me and Ruxi Milo face . But not pain de .
I want buy her bag lehs . Dickies FTW !

Kays , no more noob craps le . I want go help Ruxi Milo change skin le .

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iloveyou kays . Although we always fight . But our hearts are joined everytime . We from JiehMeih change to Oreo&&Milo Sweetheart .woaini .

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Zar : and link mii too.

Sure .I will .Haha . Loves . Zar: tag ?

Thanks ? hah .Like i force you . Zar: . iie juz trying to be a joker ;D

Maybe . Haha .

Ru Xi: hehs. mei. love youh. die die must cheer up kayys? I already cheerup upp :)

Baohui: Meimie <>

Okays . But nice what . Lols . Ru Xi: woainimen. ♥

:) Ru Xi: Taggies. anyway u guys must stay strong kays? Seeing you guys like that... Haiz.

Don so Hais .

Cheerupp lurhs .

Cheerupp lurhs .

Cheerupp please !


I amback friends with Ruxi le . Good rights . Kays larhs . I only do one short post . Tmrw is Mothers' day . GOnna buy present later . Lols . Don no what presents to buy for her . Maybe flowers ? I bankrupt le lehs . left like 2 dollars plus . Haha . Ruxi later maybe going to o .

Exams is just 2 more days . i really need to buck up like what Mrs Ng said . I must ! CHengmun MUST ! Lols . I must stay in HA class lehs . 3 years le .Cannot drop de . Alrights .

I am not gonna say more . Buhbyes :)

I am cheerupp !

This feeling is the first time ....

Sometimes its wrong .

I was wondering about all the thing i had done . But . I realised something . that is , why must i care for people when they don even care about me .Hais . I cannot stop all this . They want care who , not my prob . If you want to care for me , GO AHEAD . THANKS . But if not , Don talk to me please .
But , I am glad that there are some people who love me that much . Thanks . Now , i am very very stress . My exams are coming soon . I cannot afford to lose marks . Its SA1 alrights . I had revised like mad le . Don make me be crazy .I really cannot be that stress in my Primary life anymore . Mrs Ng going to leave us again sia . So bad . New teacher is coming . I hate this . :(

Yantian HeartloverJieh , Listener (!)

I really thanks you for being my best listener these 2 days . You really make me feel better . woaini . But , my heart is still aching .You really cool me down . You care for me so much . I can sense it .You always worry for me ,handling all this small little things of mine .
Although i am P5 now , I still wanna you to be happy and i should be mature enough le barhs .I'll always love you . alright . I know you don really like me . I knew already . But , no matter what , i still love you alrights .You are the only one that listen to my craps patiently and talking to me the best way to calm me down . and even cheer me up .Thanks .


Zarni Korh , FUNNAH !

Korh , thanks larhs . love you kays . Thanks for listening to my craps too and baring all the bad things i said when my mood was off. But you are damn damn Funny . You cheer me up when i am not feeling well . Thanks soso much . alrights . Although you may think i have attitude prob , i will try to change de . For everyone's sake .You are really my best Korh alrights . But , you always make me want scold you lorhs , always tease me . Then people serious , you laugh here laugh there . Lols . Thanks la in the end . I love the way you cheer me up . alrights . Thanks .:)



Only the 2 up there cares about me . Others ? I don't know . Just tell me in MSN or sms me if you care also .I really dont know . Please do not hold against me . :)

No more Brave && Strong

Remember the days we were together ...

woaini , Wifey ...

Look at this pic ,
you would know who i am refering to right . Shes my wifey . My best Wifey . I love her so much that it is soso deep . I know ,
Love is invisible . She cant see it .But i am sure she can feel it .
Will she really want to be happy ?
I wanna see her happy .
But ...
She wasn't that ...
She quarreled .
People don understand what had happened .
Butt ..
I can see people Shouting at her or even scolding her today ...
I really want to stop all this .
People cannot feel what i had done for her .
What if i really die one day ?
I would have regrets ,
broken heart with me .
Can love stop all this?
No .It cant .
Being strong cant mean anything .
Its just face .
But no matter what ,
in your heart ,
you are still very weak and sad.

Sorry Wifey ,
I knew all the hurts i treat you .
I knew i kept on asking you to be strong ,
hurts you alots .
I have thought about it ,
no matter what is your decision ,
I will support you alright .
You want die all this ,
I pei you .
All the things i can do ,
I will help you .
Do approach me .
iloveyou ,
&& its ,
foreverandever .

Suffering in silence .

What if this operation Fail ,

I could have just die ...

After exam , i would maybe have a operation . Why cant i just die . Then suffering from all these emotional acts .
I don want to breath .
I wanna just die .
I don want to cry .
Love hurts ,
Gans don help .
They do not know anything .
They don care for me now .
Only Jiaxing ,
What can i do ?
Suffer myself .
Maybe she is the same age ,
I am two years younger ,
don have the attention?
Hais ,
Maybe...
These maybe an 2nd operation le .
Die le ,
Better .
Don need ,
so sad for people .
Hais ...
All i can do is ,
Suffer in silence .

I cant imagine it .

Jiaxing Wifey ,


Sometimes life could be bad like now ..

I know you are feeling bad now , but . Me , wanna you to be brave .I don wanna lose contact with you . Now , I am at the same school as you , i cannot avoid you .
I love you so much as a wifey , You sure don want me sad marhs . I also don want .You cannot run away just like this . In my life , relationship could be nice , could be a nice romance , but , it could hurt anyone too . Like what my ex do .
He promised me that he would care for me forever , But , no , he two timer . He have another gf without telling me .Wth can i do ? Nothing .Its 2 years and 4 months love you know .I have to just forget about it and give up .All i do is try . No other thoughts . Positive , not negative.
The time you and Yufeng spent together are really good memories . But , You have to accept what he want and what is good for you two .Even though now , it hurts you .No one wants this to happen , like what you do .
No matter what , be strong . I and your gans don wanna give you up , or even lose contact with you forever and ever .
My relationship is also bad . I will be having a operation soon . I hope u would treasure the times with me .If , i cannot get out of the operation safely .

Its always like this ...

为什么结果是我受痛苦 . . .


Maybe you already forget about me ..

These few days i seems so sad . But , my face seems strong . Where is the old Chengmun ? She's dead by love .I love him so much , without thoughts , i am willing to die for him .But , he love her . Not me .what can i do . Nothing .I cant make it anymore .

I Can't tolerate these 2 months.


Its been already 2 months , you stop talking to me .I really wanna just kill myself . Friendship / relationship problem . Just what kind of them will i have ? Hais .Cant you just talk to me .I never see you smile at me already . I only tell you i like you , you stop all these . wtf i do .I can wait for you .Forever . You hurt me so many times . I forgave . Just one time , you don care le , my fault ? You lie to me . You hurt my heart again . You have a gf , you told me you dont . It really make me feel sad . I want to kill you . But , I cant bare to . Hais . Maybe i should forget all about this .

Random pictures .
Graduated from Malay Class.
Lols , Ugly siol.
Vulgars.
Gans For life!
Hugs & Kiss .
Lovesss !